Kisa wakes in bed next to Yukina–and he has had a WILD night. It was the first time they’d seen each other in a while, and well…they made up for lost time, quite vigorously. But while Kisa had found his pleasure quite quickly…he was so overwhelmed and exhausted after climaxing that he…kind of just fell asleep. Before Yukina finished. Oops.
Kisa: /…CRAP, I DID IT./
He’s mortified at what he’s done–but he’s about to turn 31, so it’s not that surprising to him that he’s finally feeling ‘not as young as he used to be’. He’s going to be yet another year separated from Yukina, and while he isn’t usually one to care that much about age gaps, it’s the physical gap that comes with that’s starting to take its toll on him. Yukina is young and gorgeous, but Kisa has no idea if he’s even physically satisfying Yukina anymore.
After Kisa showers, Yukina rouses and greets him, and Kisa diverts his attention with a question about what Yukina wants for White Day (March 14). Since Yukina got Kisa chocolates for Valentine’s Day, Kisa wants to give him something in return.
Yukina: “Then…you, Kisa-san.”
Yup, he wants to spend the whole day with Kisa–and after Kisa recovers from the impact of Yukina’s brightness, he reminds Yukina that he really wants to give something physical, like a present or something Yukina wants to own. He wonders if he ought to make something homemade himself, since that’s what Yukina gave him. As he dresses, considering his options, Yukina asks absently if he likes hoodies. Kisa admits that he guesses he does–they’re easy to wear and convenient. Yukina goes on to press him about his favorite color before slipping off for his own shower–but in the move to stand, he knocks a sheaf of papers to the floor. On closer inspection, he realizes it’s Kisa’s driver’s license renewal paperwork from going to renew it the previous day. But as he peruses the card, he notices…
Yukina: “Wait…huh? Kisa-san, is your birthday…March 14th?”
Kisa:“Eh? Oh, yeah…”
Yukina starts babbling a mile a minute–he was sure that Kisa was a summer baby, especially since Kisa had always told Yukina that his birthday was already past (which, he now supposes, it technically was). He despairs that he’ll be in class all day and that he’ll work late into the evening at his part-time job that day, which means they can’t do anything.
Kisa reassures him that he really doesn’t need to worry about it, that Kisa doesn’t really want to celebrate, but Yukina is firm. He wants to get Kisa a cake, he wants them to do something, he wants to give Kisa a present, he wants to spend this special day with the person he loves–
Kisa: “I SAID I DON’T WANT TO AND I MEANT IT!”
After blowing up, Kisa storms out, leaving Yukina behind.
The next day at work, he’s a tense, sour mess, and the others give him a wide berth. He and Yukina are still speaking, but they’re clearly walking on eggshells around each other. He knows it’s ridiculous to be so hung up on his age, but that’s precisely why he can’t discuss it with Yukina. Yukina probably just wants to celebrate his birthday, that’s all–to show Kisa he cares. He probably isn’t considering at all that a birthday means Kisa is aging and that they’re growing apart again. He needs to apologize. Needs to make Yukina understand.
He drops by Books Marimo that evening, White Day gift in hand, prepared to just lob it at Yukina and make a break for it. But the store is abuzz with activity, and Yukina is surrounded by his usual throng of fans. However, most of the most ardent ones are high-schoolers and those in their early 20s, and a pair of older women in their late 20s, early 30s stand near Kisa, despairing that they’ll never catch Yukina’s attention at this rate.
Lady: “Seeing all those pretty young things really saps your will, huh?”
Their words jolt him, and he makes a break for it just as Yukina notices he’s there. Yukina chases after him, but a customer needs his help, and with the momentary diversion, Kisa escapes.
Kisa wanders the streets alone, bitterly admitting that “as long as we’re in love, age doesn’t matter!” is a bunch of bull. In the real world, age just draws the both of them further and further apart.
His wandering eventually brings him back to his apartment–and as he draws close, he sees…
Kisa berates him for just waiting here in the cold and not calling to say he was waiting. Yukina asks if it was indeed Kisa he’d seen at the shop, and Kisa admits that it was, but lies when Yukina asks why he didn’t stop when Yukina called him, claiming he hadn’t heard. This is the final straw for Yukina.
Yukina: “I really…really do want to celebrate your birthday, Kisa-san. I want to tell you ‘Happy Birthday’, but you don’t want to hear that. And yet I can’t figure out why you don’t want to.”
Yukina desperately wants to know what he should do–if Kisa is angry with him, then…
But Kisa stops him, tells him he hasn’t don’t anything wrong, that it’s Kisa’s personal problem–and he finally forces himself to admit why.
Yukina: “Then why…”
Kisa: “Because! I don’t want to be another year older than you!”
He feels mortified, because now that he’s said it, he realizes how pathetic it sounds. Yukina, though, is just thrilled that Kisa isn’t angry with him or through with their relationship. Kisa confesses that it’s simply that, lately, he’s being reminded–bodily–of how far apart they are in age, and thinking that Yukina would probably be better off with someone young and beautiful who suits him better than Kisa does.
Kisa mostly just wants to sink into a hole and die, after confessing all this, and it isn’t helped when Yukina’s response is:
Yukina: “THAT’S what you’ve been worrying about?!”
Kisa: “YEAH! GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT?”
He knows it’s ridiculous to worry over, but it’s still bothering him. Yukina turns the tables, though, confessing that he’s the one who feels like he’s about to be left behind, struggling to keep up with Kisa.
Yukina: “I’m a man too, you realize! You’ve been around the block more than a few times, so I don’t want to lose to the men you’ve been with before me! That’s why I’m working my butt off every time we do it, struggling to turn you into a puddle of blissed-out goo!”
Kisa: “THAT’S WHAT YOU’RE CONCERNED ABOUT?!”
Yukina is relieved, though–because this just means that Kisa is worried for his sake. Which means Kisa must really love him. Flushing with shame, Kisa confesses that…yeah. Sure. Why not?
Kisa: “And the fact that I’ve wracking my brain and going crazy over something so STUPID is ALL YOUR FAULT too! It’s all because I LOVE YOU. YOU IDIOT!”
Yukina is ecstatic, throwing himself at Kisa because, of course, he feels the very same–and they take their celebration to the bedroom, where Yukina gives him a lovely present indeed.
As they lay in bed after, exhausted, Kisa grumbles that because of Yukina, he can feel all of his 31 years more keenly now than before. He berates Yukina for being so eager and straightforward in their love-making, pushing Kisa harder and harder, and Yukina replies that he can’t be blamed–it’s all Kisa’s fault, after all. Plus, if he must know, Yukina has been holding back.
Kisa: “Guess I’ve got no choice then… I’m your elder, after all. How about another round?”
Yukina: “Kisa-san… That expression truly is criminal.”
Later, the pair finally exchange gifts–Yukina gets homemade chocolate for white day, ranting all the while about how humiliating it is for a 31-year-old man to be making chocolates for someone, but Yukina loves the gesture. He then gives Kisa his present:
Yukina: “It’s a birthday present. Sorry, I took the liberty of measuring your finger while you were sleeping. I don’t have much experience with metalwork, so it’s not very well-made at all, but I hope you like it.”
Kisa: “Wait, YOU made this?”
It’s the very first ring Kisa has ever received–and he falls in love with Yukina just a little bit more from the gesture. And the ring isn’t the only present he got Kisa…
Yukina: “TADA!! A BUNNY-EAR HOODIE!”
Kisa is, of course, thrilled, and the chapter closes as the pair fight over Kisa trying on the ridiculously cute outfit.